I Met Her... Jai HO....

Yes, it was one of the pleasant surprises of life which happenned few weeks before in one of the sadest moments of life and I met her. I met her in an unusual manner at a place and situation which was uncalled for. I never thought that there would be a day in life when I would meet her and if so, in a situation as patthetic as it was.
These days, I am coming back to a state where I can think about life and everything about me. I had become plastic and lifeless and coming back to life with its own pain and sufferring, happiness and glory, challenges and goals, all of these coming one by one like students of a school coming out on aline in a mid summer afternoon.

I met her in a sad moment of life when she was in deep grief due to sudden demise of her father. I had gone back to their family after a gap of some fifteen years....... I didnt know that she would be there? Did I know, may be yes, how can she be not there when her father has passed away! Yah, I met all of them, the whole family minus uncle who was no more with us.

At the end of meeting everyone, she walked in and asked me "can you recognize me?" may be she was thinking that I have forgotten her over the years and can not recall her? How does she know that there has never been a day when I have forgotten her. The sense of guilt I am carrying for ever for neglecting her emotions when she was around me and then waiting for the whole life to say sorry (though I didnt say sorry to her). But it was a good thing in life and it gave some level of containment that I could meet her...... Otherwsie I always thought I will die without seeing her again in life.

But with so much pain and sufferring that I have passed in last few months, the best thing to happen in life is to meet her after long fifteen years, may be I need to be congratulated. i still remember the song..

dil bhi aaj adaa hai is jid pe
kis bachhe ki tarah
yaa to usse sub kuchh chahihye yah kuchh nahin


I will write more about the meeting and subseqent events.... in second, minutes, hours, days, months may be years to come...............??????!!!!!!!

Will she ever read my blog someday? Should I tell her to read my blog some day??