Its Calmness Within

I never thought that I will get so much of peace in mind just two days after quiting my job. I am coming back to myself so fast. what reasons are there for me to cool down and be calm and bring a sense of forgiveness within myself. Prabin told me' dont you think revengefull? My answer to him is a big 'NO". From the begining I have kept this to myself that come whatsoever, I will never bring any negative thought to my mind and will not do anything negative. I would like to see how low can I go in life by sticking to my principles, staying focussed to my goals and through positive thinking. I dont this this is a challenge to myself, rather it is a challenge to others to see my 'resoluteness' This may be due to reading lots of books on leadership and good value or may be from the ideas of good brand/bad brand philosophy. I dont know for what, but today I have a sense of peace and forgiveness within me.
Let the lesser mortals work and do whatever they wished to do, let me do my peace of mind and work for the dreams that I have. I think I will come out as successful at the long run. Last two days have been damn good, I am reading books, reading mails sent by my students and collegues as a response to my good bye mails, did some cooking last night also. Cleaned up all the personal papers and garbage and realized that I was carrying more garbage and less of good papers with myself. Being nostalgic, just did an evaluation of my incomes and savings over the years and was calculating how many more days can I have this comfort of reading, sleeping, walking, cooking and doing nothing for money. Did I ever write that I had nothing at one point of time in terms of money, assets and properties some 15 years before. I worked very hard over the last fifteen years and could make up something. Then being a management student did some future projections by taking inflation int to account and so also adding the cost of leaving !
Blah! I found out that if I dont do any work from today and just stay home and do some book writing, consulting and column writing in the , save for my son's professional education, I think by repaying my loans I can still survive for 115 years (of course with a single family holiday, no air travel, no credit card use and buying books to read worth 50,000 per year. With a projected inflation rate of average 8% and money growing at 15%, my savings should take me for 115 years with a certain percantage as re-investment option and this is based over the most pessimistic modelling on my stock market performance (25% return from stock invests where as currently I work at 40% return on long term gain model; all that short term gains are absorbed post tax and adjusted against tax liabilities. The current available liqidity should make me to run for three years without any serious work committment.
I think I have started giving lessons on personal finance and trying to show my acumen in managing personal finance. But I am not going to survive for another 115 years and i dont want to see a day when potatos will cost me 110/ a killo. My projections show these numbers. Lets leave these stupid things.
Mr. Needhesh Tyagi is the editor of Pune Mirror and we are planning to work together on an interesting project. I was told that Gandhiji travelled across India and wrote few notes on India and Indian countryside. I dont know which book is ther$e which has got all these notes. I have read Gandhiji the list and seen him only as a marketing man. If you have some clue about these notes of Gandhiji on India, do send me a mail at tapanpanda@gmail.com or tapanpanda@yahoo.com so that I can take this project forward. What book do you think I should try my hands now? Dont give me a management book now. I would like to write something on Indian youth, their aspirations, failures, complexities of life or on Indian woman. But as a reader of this blog if you think I should look for some new ideas and if you can help me on this I will be grateful. Do write to me on any interesting aspect of Indianness that I should focus on my next book.

Of course in a day or two I will start working on my old nostalgic journey of my child hood.